coven’s Neighborhood

Today began the week much better than last week.  Didn't wake up to any surprising or unexpecting news on twitter like I did last Sunday LOL. Hopefully this is a sign that this whole week will be a lot better than last week.

I fixed up my paper for class tomorrow.  I just made up stuff for it.  My professor made no sense.  I mean you're writing about an observation you made in a classroom.  How you're supposed to cite sources on that is beyond me...but whatever.  I'm convinced professors don't know what they're talking about.  But I just put in citations there so I could get it over with LOL.

I missed Joey Clement online!!! I was so mad I just missed him...like within a matter of a few seconds!!!  That would've helped me get going on that stupid paper LOL.

Watched Figure Skating on TV today.  Saw Johnny Weir!!!!  So excited he made 2nd place...I was happy when I saw him in first but he got knocked down by the last skater.  But the fact he stayed in the top 3 made me happy.  Can't wait to see him during the Olympics.

YAY!!!! Apolo Ono is in the Olympics too this year!!! cant wait!  And double excited for the Olympics now cause...APOLO ONO is in it again!!!  He's my fav speed skater.  So can't wait for the Olympics to begin.

I am so excited about this Michael Jackson program I'm going to do for skating this season.  I was listening to the This Is It soundtrack and thinking of moves for the programs...I feel this is my own way of honoring and remembering him.

So I have a guitar that I've had for about 11 years now..and I rarely play it.  I took it out the other day and played for a little bit.  But now I feel like I wanna stop with that and move on to the bass.  Cause the only songs I can seem to play on the guitar are Jason's songs.  And I dont want to keep being reminded of him every time i pick up the guitar....ughh...I don't know. I wanna give up the guitar and play bass like Joey.  But at the same time I wanna keep my guitar and play it like Andy....ehhh decisions decisons lol.

Feeling much better than I did last night when I was getting all those Jason fans jumping down my throat.  I mean seriously..really...just get a life. If I don't happen to wanna be a huge fan like I once was well that's my opinion.  Don't try to change how I feel ya know.  And I talked about this with Jen last night...I realized what had happened when I went to the mall concert.  I think I was trying to convince myself that I still loved Jason like I did back during the Idol time.  But I just cant do it...I just cant go back to that time.  All the times I met Cook and saw him in the concert this past summer...those were much better times.  More fun times really.  And I'd rather see David again before ever seeing Jason again.

Woo hoo! And even got my costumes!  I talked to my coach today about my skating programs. I can do the two Michael Jackson songs.  I'm doing "Bad" and "Beat It"  We talked it over and even talked costumes.  AHHH so excited.  In a way I feel this is my own way of remembering him.  I wanna do like my best with these programs.  

Now I didn't watch Idol this past year cause i protested the show since Jason was kicked off.  And boy do I regret doing that.  Cause I missed seeing Adam on the show but I absolutely love his music!!! I can't wait to get his cd.  I've been hearing For Your Entertainment on the radio constantly and...I just love the song.

I'm trying to win Bon Jovi tickets for me and Jen.  No such luck so far.  But i'm gonna keep trying.

Last night at the David Cook show, Andy sang Til I'm Blue.  I love that song so much when he sang it in Midwest Kings.  But I wish just once that Andy would sing at one of the shows me and Jen go to.  Hell I'm willing to go to Tulsa so I can see him doing a solo show there.

wow just woke up after like a 3 hour nap LOL...time to go back to watching Andy now LOL  I had such a workout with skating today.  I was so exhautsed that I took a 3 hour nap...or maybe even longer.  I woke up like an hour ago LOL.  I'm still tired.

starting a new fanfic!  Started a new Andy fanfic!!! Yea I know I havent finished my other ones yet but when I get new ideas I just need to start new fanfics LOL.
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When was the last time you were told you were cute?Halloween

What was the last drink you had? vanilla soy cappucino from Starbucks

Look at your recent calls, who was your last call from? Chrissy

What is bothering you right now? nothing anymore

What does your last received text message say? no idea

Last place you went out to eat? Unos

When was the last time you were truly, completely happy with your life? Ummm...I'd hate to say this but Oct 18....i guess.  Or maybe August 7...yea August 7 was happier

What're you doing tonight? nothing

What was the last voicemail you received about? wrong # LOL

When's the next time you will see the person who absolutely takes your breath away? hopefully Monday if he comes in :)

Have you ever read an entire book in one day? Yes.

Does anyone know your password besides you? yea

Do you look at the keyboard when you type? rarely

What are you most looking forward to tomorrow? ummm nothing

Do you think your last ex deserves to die? No

Last night did you go to sleep smiling? No cause I had Jason fans leaving me message that were hurtful and hateful and they were making me cry...and they wonder why I don't like him that much anymore...his fans turn me off

Did you have a good day yesterday? yes

Do you still talk to the person you fell hardest for? rarely

What are you looking forward to in the next three months? Foxwoods trip with Jen

How's your heart lately? it's doing good.

Will this weekend be a good one? so far so good LOL

Have you ever gone nude/streaked in public? Nope

Who hugged you last? dad

What is your relationship status? single and hating it with a passion

Look behind you, what do you see? My hamtser Eleanor

Any summer plans for 2009? its over but was the best summer ever!

If you had to eat 1 thing for the rest of your life, what? pizza

When was the last time you talked to your number 1? just now

Have you dated anyone on your top 4? nope

Do you eat junk food everyday? no

How late did you stay up last night and why? no idea but not too late cause i had skating in the morning.

Have you ever been hit by the opposite sex? no

How's your life lately? Happy.

Do you miss anyone? yes.

Is there one place you'd like to visit? Greece

Have you held hands with anyone today? no

Project Runway...am I happy with the final 3...not really.  Chris was my favorite on the show and I hoped he would've made it to the finals.  But he didn't :(  Sometimes I don't understand designers.  All his designs they hated I loved and would've so worn too.  Oh well...I guess out of the 3 I would like to see Carol Hannah win.

Had Student Teaching today...went very well actually.  I worked with students one on one most of the day helping them with writing math problems.  The 2nd graders are so cute...hyper...but cute LOL,

Girls night out with Jen was so much fun!  We went to Unos for dinner and drinks (and trust me...I needed it tonight lol).  Then just wondered around the neighborhood aimlessly talking bout David and Andy and Joey LOL.  It just felt good getting out and clearing my mind ya know...

I can't believe it...I started getting nasty messages from Jason fans.  Out of nowhere.  My tweets weren't even about Jason or David...all I said was I got back from work and people starting sending me nasty messages for being a Cook fan.  Then one Jason fan had the nerve to call me a liar and say messages like that didn't exist!  See this is the reason I get turned off from Jason...it's not him who does it...it's his fans who turn me off from him...they scare me with these messages and I end up getting myself sick over it.

I can't wait til Friday.  Me and Jen are having our margarita friday get together...and boy do I need it.  I swear all the crap going on this week is just annoying now.  I'm getting crap just cause I'm not happy that Jason Castro got engaged!!! So what if that's how I feel ya know.  And know why the reason I'm not happy...cause i feel like he did this too soon into starting his career and now that this little stunt just may ruin what he hasn't even started yet.  I mean no cd out yet, just this small tour he did for radio and mall...he's just taking off.  And now I feel like this is just gonna ruin what he could've had.  And again it's my opinion so I don't care if people agree or not it's how I feel and I think he's an idiot for doing this now...And I know some fans feel the same way...But of course people give me crap for not being happy.  I'm sorry but I tried to be at first and just couldn't.  Now don't get me wrong..I still like his music, I'm still getting the cd but that's it. I just don't feel the need to see him in concert or meet him again.  I did that...got my pic...what more do I need..nothing!  There...I feel so much better now finally saying how I feel.  It's not bottled up anymore.

Good news came today...I got a raise at work! Woo Hoo!!! Got a good review from my boss.  So much better than what I got at the old store...wonder why.  I'm appreciated more over here I think.

I'm glad I wasn't in the mood to skate today...the rink was closed anyways HAHA.  They had something special going on for the Olympics today.  100 days left!!! Can't wait.

I'm getting closer and closer to walking into the Bass Room in Manhattan at Sam Ash.  I stay away from going inside but still...I really wanna buy a bass.  I know i should learn my guitar first but....who knows....maybe I will go to the bass.

I went walking around the city today bored after work.  Some guy walked passed me who looked like Constantine.  I dont know if it was him or not cause he walked by too fast...but all I kept thinking was...omg what if it was him LOL.

What color are your nails painted right now?
None…ill paint them black tomorrow since im off for the weekend from work

Do you have a boyfriend?
nope

What are your plans for tonight?
nuffin

What is your current favorite song?
I just haven’t met you yet -Michael buble

Is there any band/artist you would love to see right now?
Andy Skib…Joey Clement…I’ve sorta met them but never a real meet ya know what I mean

What is your worst subject in school?
Science always was

How long until you kiss someone again?
Who knows

Would you rather write in pink pen or blue pen?
blue

Do you get embarrassed easily?
yes

Skinny jeans or bootcut jeans?
skinny

Did you ever play the game Operation as a child?
yep

Do you want to see somebody right now?
yes

When's the last time you cried?
Monday

Would it be more likely of you to fail Science or Math?
Ehhh…..science

Will you regret your next kiss?
no

Are you short?
yes

Are you cheating on someone right now?
no

Do you have siblings over the age of 21?
Only child

Who was the last person you texted?
Ellen

Can you open a soda can with a body part other than your hands?
nope

Were you happy when you woke up today?
Yes finally lol

What were you doing at 8 this morning?
working

Do you find it rude when people text when they're talking to you?
I used to until I learned the greatness of texting LOL

Are you afraid of 2012?
nope

If you could, would you hookup with the last guy you talked to?
Ummm……hmmm….

whens your birthday?
Sept 30

Who's bed were you on last other than your own?
My parents

Who was on your bed last other then you?
Just me

What were you doing this morning at 5:30?
About to head to the bus stop

Do you like someone?
Oh yes I do :)

What song do you have stuck in your head?
don’t give up on us -to have heroes

What's your favorite color?
black

Are you addicted to anything?
starbucks

Do you dress up for Halloween?
Yes all the time

Are you ticklish?
Yes very

Do you like massages?
Never got one

What do you really miss?
Ehhh…..

Last time you laughed really hard?
Hmmm no idea

Is there anyone you really dislike?
nope

How do you feel about girls smoking?
ewww

How do you feel about guys smoking?
ewww

Do you trust all of your friends?
My best friends yes

Do you tell your parents everything?
Yea pretty much

Have you ever felt replaced?
Omg yes

If you were pregnant, who would you tell first?
Lol…that would be interesting lol

Have you ever kissed someone that had a tattoo?
no

Are you a type of person who cares what people say about you?
no

When was the last time you spoke to your brother?
Only child

Have you yelled at anyone in the past few days?
nope.

Do you think you're life will change dramatically before 2010?
It hasn’t yet

Is there someone you will never forget?
yes

What makes you happiest right now?
My bestie, Jen

When you say you don't care do you mean it?
sometimes

Have you ever liked someone older than you?
yes

Is heartbreak really as bad as people make it sound?
It’s worse than what it sounds…I never wanna go through it again

Will this friday be a good one?
Yes!!! Margarita Friday with Jen!

Do you think age matters in relationships?
nah

Are you stubborn?
nope

Did anything "cute" happen in the last week?
Nope…not at all.

My best friend, Jen, told me she gave me a month before I was over Jason again and into Andy once again...and well it only lasted 2 weeks LOL.  Guess I couldn't stay away from Andy for long huh lol.  With the recent news of Jason that's been all over the net  (i dont wanna mention it or talk about it so I'll leave it at that) let's just say...fan of his music..yes.   But that's it.  I have no desire to meet him or see him in concert again.  Got my picture with him and that's all I wanted.  Well that and to tell him bout the skating thing...which when I think about it...David Cook was still more thrilled about me using his music than Jasonw as about me using his music.  Hence the reason I've changed and won't be using his music for skating now...why do the music of someone who doesn't seem the appreciative bout it right...His mom seemed more excited that she finally got to meet him.  What I'm getting at...I fell in love Again with Jason at the wrong time.
So I've been getting back to being myself now...listening to Andy's music again.  And ya know that...his music makes me feel so much better :)
Know the one song that is making me feel like 100x better...Story of your life by THH. 
One thing that never fails to cheer me up are my best friends...especially our conversations.  This was between me and Jen the other day and it still cracks me up.  Jen: "I'm not gonna tell you what or who to do."  Me: "You mean I can do ANDY!"  OMG...that really made me cheer up with all the garbage I've been dealing with these past few days.
So Monday's Andy's birthday...unfortunately I have class so I can't stay home and watch all my Andy videos like I wanted too LOL...but I will wear my red pants to class that day in honor of him LOL.
I forgot that Sunday marked the one year anniversary I fell in love with Joey Clement <3 And my life hasn't been the same since LOL.
Me and Jen are having margarita Fridays this week...hoping my stomach is rid of this bug by then.  Cause I so need to drink this weekend....drowning my pain and sorrows...it's gonna be like Foxwoods trip all over again except Joey's not the reason LOL.
I was so nervous getting my paper back in class yesterday.  I thought I completely bombed it...but I didn't.  Nothing bad just need to add stuff to it that we had learned in class yesterday so I'll do that this week and give it bck to my professor.

There were only 4 words to describe work on Thursday: What a crazy day!  You know I just had a feeling it was gonna be one of those days and it sure was.  But if anything could happen in one day...well that was what happened.  It was just insane and well scary.  But I did decide to relax that day and hit the rink once I got out of work. 

It's not even Christmas yet and Manhattan is already overcrowded with tourists.  And I hate that at the rink so much!!! They all think they own the rink and go into the figure skater's spot to skate which they get yelled at to move by guards and still don't move!!!  That's the one thing I hate about holidays in NYC. And the crowd was starting at the rink when I went skating Thursday afternoon.  Ugh...  But I did get some practice in which my coach was happy with and said it showed during lessons today.  Oh and I've made my decision for the skating recital...gonna do "Bad" since it'll be a tribute for Michael Jackson.  And then for the competition it'll be that song and Jason's song.

Hyper 2nd graders...that's who I worked with yesterday.  It was a Halloween party at the end of the day and they were flying off the walls LOL.  But I was able to get my lesson done with my one student which was good.

Halloween was fun...I put on my costume and wore it to the rink for my skating lessons. And we took a group photo. People seemed to love my costume too. After this...I'm gonna watch my traditional Criss Angel Halloween special and then the Crow...I love that movie.

I hate a lot of the local stations here!  They don't seem to like to play Jason's single at all.  And frankly...I wanna scream if I have to sit through Come Back to Me one more time!  But at least they played Man in the Mirror on the radio...that made me happy...and cry a little LOL.

They already have a pre-order for This Is It!!!!  Since I'm missing it in the theaters I pre-ordered it already.  So worth it.

Isn't it funny how immature some people could be?  Like leaving a nasty judgmental comment on someone's blog that they don't even know?  This happened to me on OpenDiary last night. I was checking comments left on my blog aand I got such a nasty comment cause of my blog about Jason tweeting me on Twitter.  Has it become such a crime now to be excited that your favorite singer responded to you?  But it didn't stop...this person went on to saying lies about me and then insulting Jason's music by calling it "Crappy"  Seriously...what is your problem?  If you don't like what I'm blogging about than don't read it.  Don't take up space on my blogs saying nasty hurtful things about me when YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW ME!!!! UGHHH!!! Stupid insensitive people just really annoy me!  But I'm more mad that they went as far as to insult Jason...I think that upsetted me even more.  UGH...I'm trying to stay calm and not let jerks bother me...just gotta think like Jason and not let anyone bother me.
But then the idocicy doesn't end there...we had even more stupid people come into the store today.  Ugh!!!  They like kept piling in and we sold out of lots of food.  Of course that happened before my break so what I was in the mood for wasn't there :(  Then they took all the seats. I'm lucky I found a spot to sit for my 10.  Then...this is the customer that had to ruin my day.  She claimed I didn't give her the right amount of change.  Uhh yea I did.  Don't claim you gave me more than you did just so you could get more money!!!  Plus why was it that she realized it like 10 mins later and came back to tell us.  Wouldn't you realize that right away if it happened?! 

Today's weather was horrible.  It was raining hard when I left for work but it was worse when it was time for me to leave.  Then on top of it bus to go to work was late!!!!  This new guy they got...he's horrible.  I used to be able to enjoy my breakfast before work...now I gotta like gulp it down cause he can't show up on time.  

Know what song I'm totally loving now...I just havent met you yet by Michael Buble.  They keep playing it at my store and I absolutely love it.  And today I was in a store looking at a bass (yes I wanna buy myself one lol) and what comes on the radio... Light On!!! HAHA...wish it was Let's just fall in love again instead though.

Went to try out this place for lunch that Constantine always seems to rave about.  Ehh...it was ok. Nothing I'd go bragging about though...tasted like what I've had at other places before.  It's funny how the ROA is my focus point in Manhattan.  I have to go by that theater in order to find out which way I'm supposed to go to find where I'm getting too LOL.  Walking back to Rockefeller I saw the Naked Cowboy in Times Square LOL.  Now 3 years ago I met him and got my pic with him...part of my 23rd bday outting with my friend LOL.  Yea wasn't as exciting as I had thougth it would be LOL.  It started to pour even more on my way home.  OMG I was drenched by the time I got home...the bus driver even felt bad for me LOL.

I'm so excited about New Moon coming out!!! I finally saw one of the commercials on TV.  And after the screaming EDWARD...scaring my dad part I finally saw it LOL. 

With all that excitement of last night...I hardly could get to sleep LOL. Can you blame me though?  I kept dreaming of Jason and then when my alarm went off it was him and I just wanted to stay in bed.  But skipping work to watch Jason videos probably wouldn't be a logical excuse huh LOL.  Luckily I have his video on my ipod that i wouldnt stop watching while on the bus...so made me feel better after the bad day I had.

I have the music for my skating programs.  Question is...do I do the Jason song or Michael Jackson song for my recital.  Both are used for the competition but only one for recital.  My heart is saying Jason though LOL.

One nasty jerk came into the store today. He wanted coffee beans ground so I give it to the worker to grind them.  And the coffee was backed up so it was gonna be a lil while.  The guy kept going tell them to grind them...which I did.  But I can't leave my station at the register to do it nor could I keep bothering those at the brewing station.  So I tell them we need this coffee ground and hes like tell the worker before she grinds the coffee we need for the store. Uhh sorry but I think the coffee that needs to be brewed for the rush is a little more important than your bag of coffee.  So he goes I told you to tell them to grind it before in a nasty tone.  So I went to him nicely, I told them twice they'll get right to it.  And then he gets even nastier and is like I told you to do it before they did other stuff!  And that got me so mad I went to him, I told them already!  Being nice to him was not an option and thing is no one from the store even stopped me from giving him attitude back.  Think they all agreed with me on that...I even got a little welcoming award from my manager for being fast and friendly on the register LOL...So that just proves that guy was a real jerk.
 

Tonight has just been one crazy night.  I decided to just out of the blue tweet Jason about using his single for skating this season.  And to my surprise my phone rang with a new text.  I took it out and saw Jason had responded to someone.  So I'm like it's not me..then I'm looking at who he responded to and I see Jcasluvr. I was like...OMG No way!! He responded to me.  He wanted to know bout the music being used so I wrote back and that was it.  Then he has a twitter party and i decided to ask him what his fav starbucks drink is since i work for them.  And I didnt expect a second response...so to my surprise I get another text message saying Jason responded to a fan.  And I didn't expect to see my name there but sure enough it was.  he wanted me to help him out with what drink he had cause he didn't know what it was...I hope I helped him out with that one LOL.  But OMG...am I on cloud 9 now.  I love him more than I possible ever did before.  I'm so glad I fell in love again with him :)  I didn't expect even one response from him...let alone 2 of them.     

Now...question for those who have seen my picture with Jason.  Do we look alike?  Many people have been telling me we look alike and that we could be brother and sister.  I don't see it but just wondering if I'm the only one who doesn't see it LOL.

The other day I found a cd in my room and assumed it was the Jason mix I made.  So I put it on...and turns out it's this old cd I had from like college days.  OMG...one of my fav songs was on it too...I must not chase the boys by Play!  I hadn't heard that song in ages!!!  I still love it too.
I just got into lastfm and I must say I love it.  However...when I make a Jason Castro station...one song by him wouldn't hurt.  No...they played every Idol contestant from past seasons...including his season but not one Castro song!!!  And not for anything I'm sick of hearing Cook now LOL. Just stuff I've been hearing what's gone on behind the scenes of the tour...it has me disgusted. And the only reason I'm gonna go to his shows would be just to see Andy..plain and simple...only to go see Andy Skib not to see him.  Makes sense though since the only reason I went to the NYU show was to see Joey LOL.  And well the Foxwoods and Nokia show were to just see Joey but he had to go and change that on me huh LOL.
I took out my guitar to play the other day!  Every time I hear Jason's new single I just wanna play my guitar so I did LOL.
I'm getting tired of the radio stations here.  None wanna play Jason!  There's one station that does but they didn't play him when I had it on.  Otherwise right now WPLJ and Fresh1027 I'm hating until they stop playing the same crap and start playing Jason LOL.
  
Project Runway...I don't know but my favorites keep being kicked off!  Now Nickolas?!!  Well at least Chris and Logan are still there.  But Irina needs to be kicked off already.  She's just so mean.  I can't stand her at all.  Her outfit this week looked like a jedi warrior outfit LOL...How she won is still beyond me.  Sometimes i just don't understand the judges on that show LOL.

Went to help out at the school again this week.  I did alot more work than usual.  Even gave two students a test.  And one of the students even gave me a card as a gift.  I was all....omg my first teacher gift!  Out of nowhere one of them asked me if I was married and when I said no she said you didn't look like you were.  I was like...uhh ok? LOL.

Me and Jen went to see Vampire's Assistant on Friday. Movie was pretty good.  Better than I thought it was going to be.

Had skating lessons yesterday and we talked music for my programs this year.  I'm gonna be doing Jason's new single and a Michael Jackson song.  I couldn't decide on one but I think I finally have.... "Bad"  We even did the Moonwalk on the ice yesterday!!!!

All set for Halloween.  I painted my pumpkin and made dreads for it.  Here is a pic of it.pic.gd/3d959e  I also tried on my costume...I thought it was going to be too long and that my mom would to fix it for me...but it's a perfect fit!

So I made a photo album from last weekends Jason concert to make it easier for everyone to see the photos.  Here's the link:bit.ly/2WbxqV  I got a letter from one of the "fan groups" from the heads of the group that was very hurtful and nasty. Telling me I dont deserve to be a Jason fan anymore.  I spent the night crying cause of what they did.  They lied in the letter...I never badmouthed Jason in public like they said...all I had said at the time was that I wasn't a fan as much.  But can't I feel like that at that time?  I was going through a tough time and I realized now why I was like that. It was during the time I worked at my old store and was being treated like garbage there.  And then when Jason never responded to my messages, I felt like I was being treated like I didn't matter.  And then when this same group of fans started beign mean to me...naturally I blamed him for it..hence me not being a fan for those few months.  But then things started getting better and I got back to myself and realized of course I'd still love Jason no matter what. But of course those who wrote that letter didn't bother to read that and decided to be so hurtful...how anyone can be so heartless is beyond me.

I had to do the most boring homework today.  We had to listen to a podcast.  OMG...I almost fell asleep listening to it.  It wasn't even long!  It just went on and on and on LOL....but i got it done finally LOL.